My Life. Where Amazing Happens.

Bittersweet.

That's exactly what this moment feels like. I can't decide if I am happy or sad. Excited or nervous. I think that it's all of those rolled in to one. My stint at Daytona State College is officially over and graduation lingers in the distance. I have a new part-time job as an assistant to a food photographer and yet I just said good-bye last night to one of my favorite people on the planet, Brooke Caccavelli. Funny how life works. I don't know why I got so emotional, but I did. I cried all the way home, mostly thinking of how I just said good-bye again to another friend, Liz Durbin, earlier in the week, and how it seems that as soon as I get close to someone, they always leave. Even with all that, I have been the happiest that I think that I have ever been. Maybe I'm afraid that they'll take my happiness with them when they leave. I used to be so afraid to say that I was happy, because every time that I did, whatever I was happy about went away. But now, it's as if I have had something lifted off my shoulders. I am no longer dependent on a man to make me happy, but dependent on my friends, of which I have the most amazing ever. I could not ask for better people in my life right now.

So yesterday was a success and a disaster. I did not really know what to expect, but in the whole scheme of things, they went smoothly and ended well. I made a thousand U-turns trying to find where places were around the studio. I ordered lunch from the wrong Panera and they were angry when I cancelled the order. I freaked out that I did not buy the correct looking broccoli, lemons or limes and felt nervous at times when I was just standing around not doing anything. But I got my own key and at the end of the day when Susan and I were talking with one of the stylists, Susan said that many people from Daytona State have wanted to work with her over the years, but I am the one that got the position. I sealed the deal when I sent a Christmas card (thank you, Patrick Van Dusen!). She said I did very well and that all of this was just part of the learning curve. I am so blessed to have someone that is so successful take me under their wing. This is what I've been hoping and praying for for so long and I really feel as if this is going to lead me to something wonderful. God is so good.

So here's to new beginnings. A chapter in my life is about to come to a close and a new one is beginning. Here's to that new chapter being even more amazing than the last.

*CHEERS*