No matter what events unfold, one thing is for sure. One chapter of my life is coming to an end and another is about to begin.
When I embarked on my first degree, I was so young. Straight out of high school I moved out of my parents' house, in with roommates I had never met before and began attending a four-year university with no sense of direction for my life or any idea of the knowledge that I now possess. I chose a major from an elective that I enjoyed in high school after my first semester, and without any research on the best college to attend for that field. I was never truly happy, only getting by. Four years came and went and after the hype of the graduation party and walking across the stage was over, real life began. I was unprepared.
Two years later I was stuck in a box office staring out a window almost every day of my life, making under $8/hr. and wondering what went wrong. I had a four-year degree from a successful university and here I was, wasting my life away. I had to do something.
I began writing things down. I made a list of all the things that made me happy and tried to find a new career that incorporated as many of those things as possible. Photography won by a landslide. Hello travel and an end to monotony!
This time I did my research. I narrowed it down to two schools, one in Tampa and one in Daytona Beach. The decision was not a hard one, as Daytona State College offered a place close to my hometown and a tuition that was amazing. I filled out a FAFSA and applied for student loans. I wanted to show my parents that I really wanted this and that I was responsible enough to get things done on my own.
It is now two years later and graduation is slowly creeping up on me. I have learned so much more this time around, both about photography and about myself. I've learned my strengths and my weaknesses and how to overcome being shy, or at least, how to work on it. I have no clue where I will go from here. My lease is up the last day of June and as of yet, I do not have a full-time position lined up anywhere, although there is a promising assistantship in the works. My dream is to live in the city that never sleeps, the gateway to America, the Big Apple, but only time will tell where my life will go from here. At least the one thing I can say this time, I'm ready.
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